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Preston, holy hell. It's nearly been one year since we met and I don't regret a single thing. Truly. I remember when we first began talking back in November and how intimidated you made me feel!! I always felt the need to impress you or just do something to catch your eye. After you came back from your break back in January and you sent me that heartfelt message when I wasn't feeling too well, holy crap, Pres. It meant a lot. It may have not seen as much but I took every word to heart. I'm so glad you came back, Preston. I'm so ****ing happy we were able to become close and create what we have right now. Not counting January, it has been 8 months since we've known each other and 3 months since we broke our silence and told each other how we really felt about one another. And I seriously couldn't ask to have this any other way. I'm so in love with you, Preston. You make me feel things like no other. You know how to make me smile, laugh, etc. You just know. Ever since we first met, I always knew there was something special about you. Something that made you stand out from the rest. You're just this big ball of damn fluff, enveloping anyone and everyone with love. Fuck. There's so many things I love about you, Preston. From the way you're so welcoming to literally anyone to the way you express your hatred towards laundry and (your best friend) Jack. If I could list down everything I loved about you, from the tiny details that make you who you are to the things that stand out that list would be never ending. Seriously. You're one of a kind and the greatest person I know. Believe it or not, you complete me. I'm being 100% honest. I tend to sugarcoat a lot of things and you help me set my foot down and make things the way they should be. Not only that, you also help me see the brighter side of things. Both you and I know the past couple of months haven't been the greatest due to certain things, but goodness Preston. You never ever fail to help me see the positive side and put a smile on my face. Whenever I speak to you I have this semi-perm goofy looking smile on my face that never ceases to go down. You make me feel so good about myself and I can only hope I can do the same. Like I said the other night, I want to give my all to you. I want to make you happy. I want you to feel loved. I want you to feel how YOU make me feel. You make me feel like a big old warm blushy puddle of mush with little hearts hovering around it. You make me feel the way a kid feels on their birthday or when they receive a ****load of candy. You make me feel like that funny feeling in your tummy when you're on a rollercoaster the cart is going up to its peak. Nervous, but you can't wait for the drop and the rush that comes with it. I can go on and on about how you make me feel but I seriously won't stop if I continue!!
Preston. I truly mean it when I say this; you balance me. I tend to sugarcoat a lot of things but you help me set my foot down and make things the way they are supposed to be. You've taught me how to not take crap from others, and most importantly, how to see the brighter side of things. These past couple of moths have certainly not been the easiest due to a couple of things but not ONCE have you failed to be right by my side. By now, you've "seen" a lot of crappy things go down on my end and though I have these countless thoughts that race through my mind that you might get sick of all of this, not once have you complained about a single damn thinf and ****. It's so good knowing there's someone in your life who you can /actually/ go to. You help keep me calm, Preston. You know how to press my buttons (in a good way) and you always know what to say. It's quite unbelievable sometimes. And I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for letting me be with you and vice versa. Thank you for making me both the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. Thank you for being my love. Thank you for being who you are. Thank you for these months that we've spent together. I wouldn't give them up for the world. I love you so much, Preston. I really want you to know that. I love you & and I'm so, so in love with you. You have both my heart and I forever and always, my love. You mean the world to me and please don' you ever ever forget that. You deserve absolutely anything and everything, Preston. I love you so much.... and.... I'm "hopelessly devoted to you".
Yours forever & always,
Adeline
Preston: To my best friend - the girl that I met back in November 2015, the girl that had a similar sense of humor, the girl that had my cheeks hurting and lips curving, the girl that would play along with my childish antics, the girl that would stay up to the morning sunrise watching horror films with me and not think twice about it, the girl who would send me motivational texts throughout the day - you are everything. You are a person I identify with in more ways than one. Your existence is unfathomable. You are a wonder, a never-ending mystery of raw love and clarity. When I talk to you, there is bliss and I feel it oozing from my flesh every time we talk. That's something you do, Adeline. You influence, you radiate, and I haven't met someone who does that so effortlessly. I don't know why it's you. Why whatever greater power there is chose you to be the one to wreck havoc on my heart and soul and the entire universe - but I'm happy. I'm ecstatic and I'm buzzing and all I want to do is wrap you in my arms and sit with you in silence. We don't have to talk, we can just breathe (literally); our breaths mixing together to form the perfect melody and tune. You sat beneath the stars with me, watching the meteoroid shower that replicated my feelings for you. The stars fell with me, they fell for you, and I don't blame them. You are special. Take my word on this. The uniqueness surrounding your character is evident. You are not the cute girl in the coffee shop, you are not the trendy model walking down the street, you are not the aspiring singer locked in her bedroom - you are Adeline and that says everything. I love you, darling. I am, without a doubt, completely devoted to you and to us. I see a future with you, an everlasting happiness and excitement. This is the love that makes my toes curl and my stomach tighten, this is the love that I bite my lip for, the love that intensifies every breath taken. This love, my love, is the love that many don't even know exists. It's not portrayed in the movies, it's not written in the books. It is rare, unusual, and I ****ing love it. It's strange to reflect on the time we were strictly platonic, how the closeness hasn't changed. It was never awkward with you, Adeline. It was so comfortable and so easy and the transition from "friends to lovers" couldn't have been more perfect. Perhaps it's our chemistry or maybe you're easy to work with, but it wasn't difficult. Our love is so natural and so welcoming, Adeline. It truly is. Circles are perfect - and though we aren't that, I'm thrilled we did our own 360 and found meaning behind the intensity of our friendship. I'm in love with you. I'm in love with your long texts, your silly jokes, your enthusiasm about food, your soft spot for animals, your sensitivity towards your family, your determination and work ethic. I am in love with the idea of being in love with you. I am in love with the thought of meeting your dad and giving him a firm handshake. I'm in love with the thought of lounging on the sofa and petting your dogs with you next to me. I'm in love with the thought of teaching you how to drive and possibly hitting a pole. I'm in love with the idea of fitting into your life and never leaving. To my best friend - the girl that infiltrates my mind all hours of the day, the girl that fills my stomach with butterflies with eyes that match her own, the girl that sends me food porn and leaves me hanging, the girl that encourages me to do my best and nothing but that, the girl that loves me in a way I question whether I'm worthy or not, the girl that speaks in tune to the beat of my heart, the girl that marked my soul with her words and now there's no turning back - I'm in love with my best friend. So, lets try this again. To the love of my life:
- P |
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