| This tree belongs to Olivia and Nez. |
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Hey Nez!
I don't know if this tree thing is something you'd be interested in, but I thought I'd give it a try so I could like. actually attempt to do something sweet for you. Plus we have this cool little text box here and that's pretty sick which means I get to talk about you all I want oh boy oh man!!!
Thank you for the opportunity to get to know you, and thank you for being so gentle with me, knowing I'm fragile. It gives me confidence to actually. DO something like this in the first place. This tree is public, so people can see it. That is!! very much on purpose. With your gentle and soothing heart, I'm able to put my feelings for you out into the world without shame. I know it shouldn't be, but growing up gay makes it. very hard to do that sometimes.. because you'll have no idea what will happen if you're honest with those feelings. In fact,today, I was scared to express feelings with someone I knew was ALSO lgbt. I know that must sound. really dumb but when you've expressed back lash before, no matter who it is it just gets.. scary to do. But I don't wanna feel like things are scary anymore. I want to love you with my whole heart, and never be scared of that ever again. It's a little hard right now, But with you, I'm sure it's something I can overcome. Thank you for being my strength when I feel oh so weak. I appreciate your care. I appreciate your love. I appreciate your openness with me, and the person I see when you're at your most vulenrable. I love all those things so much, and If you'll have me, I'd love to continue seeing those things. When we grow old, that's something that will never get old. I'll never tire of seeing you, and loving you, even when I'm 50 and sluggish. I want to try my best for you every single day. I want to continue going on dates with you, to hear you laugh, and to be able to joke with you like we're the only two people in the entire world. You're my number one, and I want to be the one for you, too. I won't give up on you, even if you've given up on yourself. That's a womans promise! Because I want to be there with you. I didn't just accidentally fall in love with you. At the start, it felt like you were there every step of the way, holding my hand and showing me all the incredible things you create and are. I felt like I was watching, and studying, and getting to know you better. I loved, and still love, getting to know you. I don't know everything yet, of course, and I probably never will. But that's ok. I watch, study, and gather you because I'm passionate to do so. You've gained my interest, I learned from you, and now I have a passion for you. Like a weird 1930s poet situation that has like. wrote 3049859 sonnets because they just!! love doing that so much. I don't know if I'm making sense here, and I'm probably not, but this is the only way I can think of to put my feelings into words. I've talked with you, I've learned from you, and I've loved you. This is one of my life's peaks, and I feel like I can live in this bliss forever if you're here. Know that if one day you decide I'm not the one for you, and you decide to leave, I won't be upset. However, I also want you to know that you will NEVER be forgotten. You're one of the best relationships I've ever had, and I'd love to keep molding and experimenting with this relationship to better it little by little everyday. Life is all about improvement I've heard! And I would like to do all that improving with someone like you. I'm excited for what the future has in store for us.
Thank you for giving me the chance to learn with you, live with you, and love with you. You're the best, Nez! |
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