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| Val is the love of my life. My only hope is that someday we can be together if that is what she desires. It is what I have always desired. My only wish is to be with her for the rest of my life. We make each other so happy. Life is so complicated, though. I just hope that our hearts desire the same end. We both want so much of each other, but never wanted to hurt anyone. All I know is that I have never loved anyone more in my life and never want to ever love another again. May God Bless us both and her wonderful children. I just hope she can have happiness. I can't put my happiness above hers. Our relationship relies in her hands and my prays. I will pray every night that I could be hers someday. I went about it all the wrong way, but I hope God can forgive me and know that all I want is to give her my love and to have hers in return. I would wait forever for her. I just hope that if she cuts ties with me as a friend that if she is single and not with another some day, that she will give me a call or email. I just hope she contacts me if she is available. I don't wish her to not be with her significant other or a different significant other if that is what she wants or feels is best, but I just hope that if she is ever alone in life, she contacts or searches for me. It has been 26 years and I have never found anyone that I could trust with everything including my heart. I shared my first time with her. I have never loved another like her. I shared everything with her. My heart was always open. Although we both were hurt, I just hope that we can still at least be friends, but I understand if she feels she needs to cut ties. I can definetly be just friends with Val. I will always love her, but I can be just friends. I just hope that if she ever is in a situation where she is looking for a new love, that she finds a way to contact me if she cuts ties. It doesn't matter if we are both in our 70's. I would love a second chance if it was possible. I fell in love with the real Val. I never even saw her picture. She fell in love with the real me. If we ever got a second chance, we could start things out the right way this time. I don't know what life will deal me as far as Val and I. I just hope that she knows that there is someone out there for her that will always love her. If she ever has an opening in her life for my love, I hope she finds me. That is my only hope. I don't want to harm what she has now if that is what works for her, but I just want her to know, she has someone out there. I don't know how she feels, but I thank God for having what I had with her even if it was under wrong or bad circumstances. I am so thankful for everything. Every moment. The one time I was with her in person were the best moments of my entire life. She made me smile and laugh everyday and made me the happiest I have been in my entire life. She told me everything about herself and her life. I told her everything about myself and my life. I know her like the back of my hand and she knows me like the back of mine. I wish we could have met earlier in life, because I know we could have had a wonderful "almost perfect" life together. I don't know what we can have now. It may just be friends if that is what needs to be for her. We had hopes, wishes, and dreams. We had our own song. We had everything. We both got to feel each others love. If I did lose her for the rest of my life, I am grateful that I was able to love. It is better to have loved once, than to never have loved at all. I will always want more, but if her life is to remain the way it is, I can be her friend, if that is what she wants. Let this Tree be carved to show what was and if her life ever changes at anytime maybe what will be. My heart is always open. I don't run around with women. I could never do that. My feelings are all due to my heart, not my sexual desires. She is the only women that has won my heart. I am so happy that she has. I am so sorry if I have hurt her along the way. I just wish there was someway I could have had her the "right way." There was no right way. There was only a wrong way. My heart desired her so much that I had to follow my heart. No matter whether it made me a bad person or not. I wanted it all to end with us together. That is what I wanted. It just didn't work out that way right away. I just hope she knows that I was never untrue. It was all real. It wasn't just hopes, wishes and dreams. It was real. It still is real to me. I will always love Val. I will love her no matter what. I will love her as a friend or companion. May God know that I love her. She will always be in my heart..........Tom |
